i stopped writing in this. i’ve done that with a lot of my journals, but i always come back.

i am exactly one week away from completing my first year of law school. what a year it’s been. picture yourself on a constantly running rollercoaster with 100lbs of case books, your laptop, 80 people you see every single day, meals out of a vending machine, coffee and energy drinks for breakfast, all while suffering from a lack of sleep, panic attacks and a growing feeling of uncertainty as the semester goes on. increase what ever you imagine that feeling like by 5, and maybe you’ll understand what i’m talking about.

if anything, i’ve grown cynical, less optimistic, critical, skeptical, less trusting. thanks law school. maybe it’s not that bad. i think it’s the mood i’m in today, and the fact i haven’t had any meaningful interaction with another human in days.  i had a final this morning, and after 4 hours of writing, i’m finished contracts.

up next – constitutional law, followed by property II and criminal law. i actually enjoy con law, so let’s hope i feel the same after tuesday. i told my friend earlier that i’m considering a career in academia as a constitutional law professor, preferably undergrad. i think that would be pretty sick. no making plans right now though, that’s 2 years away and i have to pass these finals first.

back to studying i guess.

it’s my mom’s birthday, happy birthday mom. she went to jay’s elbow with her friends after work. hahahah jay’s elbow. memories.